Unhinged?

They say questioning your sanity proves you are,
But how sane can I be with you in my head,
Why can’t you let me be? Let me do what I want
Instead we pull back and forth on the controls
Any moment my mind might break beyond repair
Leaving me but a husk of the man I could be
Rocking back and forth in a padded cell
Is it sick that sometimes I dream of that?
A quiet place to just let the madness win
Where reality is but a distant illusion
That wild place of decisions that haunt

For now though here I lie awake to pain
Where my choices haunt my every moment
You and I side by side striving for control
Trying to cope with the despair and loss
Wishing every moment to remember no more
Or at least to be free from my sanity
Maybe I should let the psycho have it
Let him deal with the consequences
Of a mind cracked by its own choices
But until then I fight for every last marble
Hoping to put it back together somehow